First, thank you ladies for being so kind. I really appreciate it. <3
To be honest, today was really bad. This is going to sound so stupid, but (tw suicide) I always try to kill myself by driving my car off highway 1 into the ocean. Idk why. It's stupid. I drove to the ocean today and just sat there for about 3 hours on the beach and cried. It ended up calming me down after a while.
I went home though. My boyfriend was very happy to see me. He cried a lot.
I'm talking with my doctor tomorrow, so. That's something lol.
ik this is maybe bad advice but it sounds like u r reallllly in a dark place so honestly
i do recommend seeing if you can get some weed. it helped me not kill myself and now im really happy! just to get through this bad part it might help you laugh a little and just sit back and relax and enjoy a show. im so sry u feel this way rn. so glad to hear you spent some time at the beach.
walking around outside is also so helpful. i promise it does pass even though it feels hopeless rn. just think of all the places you havent seen - before you do anything, know that you can still rack up a billion dollars in credit card debt and go see those places. always remind yourself of that bc it's a reminder that you're not ready to go, not really. and you can always leave behind everything if you really want to. it's never all over.
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(Anonymous) 2021-08-19 04:40 am (UTC)(link)Hi, suicide hotline nona here.
First, thank you ladies for being so kind. I really appreciate it. <3
To be honest, today was really bad. This is going to sound so stupid, but (tw suicide) I always try to kill myself by driving my car off highway 1 into the ocean. Idk why. It's stupid. I drove to the ocean today and just sat there for about 3 hours on the beach and cried. It ended up calming me down after a while.
I went home though. My boyfriend was very happy to see me. He cried a lot.
I'm talking with my doctor tomorrow, so. That's something lol.
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(Anonymous) 2021-08-19 06:14 am (UTC)(link)been there
ik this is maybe bad advice but it sounds like u r reallllly in a dark place so honestly
i do recommend seeing if you can get some weed. it helped me not kill myself and now im really happy! just to get through this bad part it might help you laugh a little and just sit back and relax and enjoy a show. im so sry u feel this way rn. so glad to hear you spent some time at the beach.
walking around outside is also so helpful. i promise it does pass even though it feels hopeless rn. just think of all the places you havent seen - before you do anything, know that you can still rack up a billion dollars in credit card debt and go see those places. always remind yourself of that bc it's a reminder that you're not ready to go, not really. and you can always leave behind everything if you really want to. it's never all over.
anyway nonita i love u
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