__onthebound July 24th, 2021, 11:03 pm The emotionally unavailable person I had a pandemic situation with for 8mo and I were over in May but I pushed through to June because I was attached and attracted. Suddenly the last 3d he is viewing every story. And I post 10+ stories some days. And never all at once. I called him on it and he said "sorry to upset you, it came up as I was watching other stories"...FOR THREE DAYS!? Ugh. I had been doing SO WELL. And now I'm all knocked off again. So I'm coping the only way I know how. Bingeing until I am so nauseous I can't move. Because I have healthy healing mechanisms.
numbedtoe July 24th, 2021, 11:28 pm But you do, cause you shared it here. You threw out into the ether that you are struggling and reverting to harmful behaviors. And that’s a win. Even in dark humor or self deprecation we can give ourself an opportunity to better stability. So now many you can take a breath and go ok. Ok. What if I did less? What if I took a walk or cleaned my bathroom or whatever it is that deviates the pattern. Sometimes i find even setting an alarm and going “for 30 minutes I will do the opposite of this. Or clean or something different. Not always better just different. Sometimes when I can’t for my own reasons, usually physical, but I will make it 10 minutes. 10 minutes of tidying up over coping mechanisms that I know I personally need to work on. sometimes that few minutes resets me. Sometimes it doesn’t at all, and I just got a little chore done and ten minutes where I wasn’t reverting to what I tend to do. That’s perfectly ok too. Cause I figure if athletes train for greatness and it takes them years to get to where they want to be, how am I going to be any different? Most of us need some training wheels and every little bit counts and keeping score isn’t always a good idea. So I’m sorry it’s fucking with your head and your heart and hell if it were me, possibly my sex drive too. Loneliness happens. You know if it’s worth it for real or bullshit and you have had that Avenue shown to you before. You know you don’t want to go there cause it’s not a good fit. It sucks when we have feelings and see someone for who they could be, but yet they aren’t yet. They may never be, but they could be, and it can be hell to see that. So I hope you are able to find your reset and your calmness and confidence that you moved on. Even if it’s for a moment, try to be kind to yourself as you’d really like someone to be to you, or you would be to someone else. Self kindness and care are so hard. You deserve kindness. You deserve to be treated with respect and care. You are ok and more so than you know. After all you are still here and that ain’t for nothing.
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So I’m sorry it’s fucking with your head and your heart and hell if it were me, possibly my sex drive too. Loneliness happens. You know if it’s worth it for real or bullshit and you have had that Avenue shown to you before. You know you don’t want to go there cause it’s not a good fit.
i'm worried about the nona who could fuck both my parents and the one person i love the most but chooses not to, i haven't seen her in a couple days 🥺
It sucks when we have feelings and see someone for who they could be, but yet they aren’t yet. They may never be, but they could be, and it can be hell to see that. So I hope you are able to find your reset and your calmness and confidence that you moved on. Even if it’s for a moment, try to be kind to yourself as you’d really like someone to be to you, or you would be to someone else. Self kindness and care are so hard.
You shared it here. You threw out into the ether that you are struggling and reverting to harmful behaviors. And that’s a win. Even in dark humor or self deprecation we can give ourself an opportunity to better stability.
So now many you can take a breath and go ok. Ok. What if I did less? What if I took a walk or cleaned my bathroom or whatever it is that deviates the pattern. Sometimes i find even setting an alarm and going “for 30 minutes I will do the opposite of this. Or clean or something different. Not always better just different.
so, I made a new fwb a while ago and we were hanging out last night and long story short, I found out that he had been hanging w my ex too. I know it wasn't like he knew but it made me so uncomfortable and IDK, it's hard bc my ex and I are trying to be friends but tbh, it's draining and that situation last night just felt like another reason I need to separate myself from him. I'm just over it sidenote: had a date today and it was great.
so, I made a new fwb a while ago and we were hanging out last night and long story short, I found out that he had been hanging w my ex too. I know it wasn't like he knew but it made me so uncomfortable and IDK, it's hard bc my ex and I are trying to be friends but tbh, it's draining and that situation last night just felt like another reason I need to separate myself from him. I'm just over it sidenote: had a date today and it was great.
numbedtoe July 24th, 2021, 10:42 pm He’s right but for the wrong reason. problem isn’t streaming its hubris. Vod during the pandemic showed us once and for all studios would make a fortune if they released it to people at home. Expand the vod market. Go where the people are, not where you want them to be.
Problem is Hollywood decided, again, that competition was a bad thing. So all the indie studios of the 80s & 90s go away. Beyond normal, as studios have always cycled. Mergers designed to kill the competition instead of expand the market. The indies that survived to the 2000s were few & usually ended up pairing with big companies who became a lot less risk adverse. the coveted tent poles became something that were actively courted weekly vs any film kind of running it’s course. It’s more bury the competition vs share the market. all in the name of let the consumer decide. it’s a deception as the consumer only has access to the product being controlled & sold. so quickly, middle of the road films & budgets died. The respectable low budget films shrunk. They stuck around because cheap always stands a chance of getting made, & it still screams prestige during award season if your film didn’t cost a lot.
all while streaming gets its foothold. Those companies saw the writing on the wall, these conglomerates are going to make it impossible to license properties in affordable manner in the future. It would be the cable wars all over again. it’s both here & still coming. But for a moment in the quest for the new, studios forgot the value of back catalog cause Hollywood doesn’t respect anything old, while consumers always do. streamers had time to sock money away, get investors, test the waters.
for the last few years streaming is doing booming business in new content creation like a lot of the schlocky indies in the 80s. It doesn’t matter if it’s good! just got a generate a shit ton of content to justify people paying for it. tell filmmakers who haven’t been able to get their things made, come work with us! we are all about talent!
it’s working. Most people who watch the industry for years knew this was coming. only ones that didn’t are these Hollywood dinosaurs, who really thought they got something when video stores went under. It was their justification for people want to watch things in the theater. And they want to watch what we, and we alone dictate.
Even bad straight to video shit took a major downturn as the studios totally lost the pulse of the audience & forced it to be one audience. Ignoring that these studios that held on, are always making profits. Just not billions. studios pump their entire revenue stream from these awful shitty big budget popcorn films & don’t ever have any diversity from remakes, sequels, or comic book cause that’s the cycle and they are over saturating they market & will kill it too.
The last of the movie stars are gone. The last of the big action/comedy stars, gone.No romantic coms. No women’s films. There will always be family films no matter how much some bitch about how they’re not made. they are, studios make a fuck ton off of them.
studios throttled the market. So much so they didn’t greenlight no brainer sequels to big movies. Often with women or non-whites in the lead. Like we didn’t notice. They forced everything to a creative bottleneck. as it has never been about creativity but revenue, and streamers saw it all coming, now they get to play the come make your project with us, card while studios whine.
What sucks is a lot of creators aren’t getting very much money & a lot of very promising things are getting lost or are not given the shot they should have. Just create mass content before the streaming wars really heat up, & it’s coming. The days when you will only be able to watch something made by a company via their ap alone. They will bank on their back catalog keeping them afloat and it will for awhile.
I do think the days of say Paramount in the 70s, Warner brothers 80s, even Miramax are not something we are going to see again. Adapt or die
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numbedtoe July 24th, 2021, 10:43 pm Oh shit. Sorry didn’t realize how long this was. I’m in a doc office waiting room (I will be fine I just need some electrolytes again) and I’m bored. Sorry. Lol
cbluechicken July 24th, 2021, 11:11 pm so, I made a new fwb a while ago and we were hanging out last night and long story short, I found out that he had been hanging w my ex too. I know it wasn't like he knew but it made me so uncomfortable and IDK, it's hard bc my ex and I are trying to be friends but tbh, it's draining and that situation last night just felt like another reason I need to separate myself from him. I'm just over it sidenote: had a date today and it was great.
my_moloko July 24th, 2021, 11:14 pm https://www.cnn.com/2021/07/24/business/frito-lay-strike-union-contract-topeka-kansas/index.html So can I eat Doritos again?
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